Friday: Where's My Faith?

Today I don't have a scripture verse to dive into, instead I want to share with you something that I have been battling with lately and I hope you can learn something from this.

The past week has been an interesting experience for me to say the least. I was notified about a week ago that my uncle has bone marrow cancer and he was given six months to live. This has come as a huge shock to both me and my family. Something like this is hard in a very different way because at the moment it doesn't even seem like it's happening partly because I'm in a different country while this is all happening. I am certainly not a stranger when it comes to deaths in my extended family so I have been through this kind of thing several times before, yet each time is very different and each time God is able to teach me something new. With my first experience praying for someone who didn't have long to live, faith that God could heal them came easy. However, faith in God was in control whether or not He chose to heal them was there. This was something that was new to me, trusting God even though His plans don't always result in healing. However, many years later I have been able to grow and trust God in all areas in my life. Finding out that my uncle is sick and was given six months is definitely very hard, but I trust that God will somehow be glorified and He will see His will through even if it means death. I'm okay with that and I trust that God is in control. It took a friend to challenge me on whether or not I believed God could heal him. I mean I definitely believe God is capable of healing him, but do I really believe that God could do so if it be His will? It's embarrassing at the very least for me to say that no I didn't have the faith that if God chose to He could heal him. I guess I was just preparing myself according to what the doctors said. I have certainly been praying both for him and our family, but not for his actual healing. I'm not saying that God will heal him or that he won't. I believe that God is in control and whether he lives or dies I will be okay with it, certainly sad and devastated, but trusting God. However, that when it really came down to it I didn't really believe that God could heal him, I mean the doctors said there was nothing they could do. If God has power of death through the resurrection of Jesus and then He certainly has the power to heal my uncle. Maybe He will, maybe He won't, that's not up to me. My job is to trust God but also not to underestimate God.

God is in control and He has power over everything!
Do you REALLY believe that?
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